The older and more mature you grow you will notice that a lot of things begin to change. If they haven’t then you aren’t living or evolving and that is a whole different discussion. There may be some changes that are physical, emotional and mental or a combination of all three. You may also notice that some of those changes may be for the better and you may also notice some changes that aren’t so good. Below are some things that I have noticed about myself within the last year.
I just don’t give a fuck– I have never been the type to care too much about something that wasn’t conducive to my life. I have also never been the type to give too much thought into what others thought about me. But the older I get the more I just don’t give a flying fuck. I used to let minor things bother me but if I can’t control it, then I do not think twice about it. As much as I hate this about myself, I like it at the same time.
Moles are everywhere– I once read that drinking alcohol can promote mole growth and I am starting to think that it’s true. When I say I have moles everywhere, I mean it! I have them all over my face, underneath my titties and under my arms. I just thank the good Lord that they are all flat.
My sex drive is through the roof– I have always been a sexual person. Regular is never an option for me when it comes to sex and I absolutely love to talk about it. When I was on birth control I never wanted sex frequently but since I no longer take it, I want it all the time. I honestly wish I could get it as much as I think about it. I’m sure I would be a much happier person.
I don’t do gray areas– I have NEVER been a person that is in between or lukewarm but at times I used to find myself lingering around that gray area. Now I am either hot or cold or black or white, never in between. I guess because I am such a passionate person and either I passionately love or hate it. I never do anything unless I’m 100% sold on it. I don’t care if it’s a career move, my love life or what I want to eat for dinner that night. I have never been a person that thinks “well, it’s just for the moment” or “it will do for now”. If I don’t think twice about it after I see, hear or touch it then I’m completely okay without it.
If you love it let it go– I have never understood this saying until now. I am not sure if this saying is just not elaborated enough or if you have to experience it to understand but now I get it. Here is my interpretation of this quote. I feel that if you love someone and for some reason you and that person are not on the same page and the relationship does not go as expected, maybe it will cause some issues. More than likely you and that person are not communicating effectively and maybe he/she is not putting forth the effort to meet you in the middle. If you are not getting what you need and the other person is not making the necessary steps to compromise and keep you, let it the fuck go. If that person comes back and is showing you that they want to be in your life and that you matter, then it’s yours baby. I know that it was a long explanation but some things are not cut and dry.
Money isn’t everything– Lord I love money and I am positive we all wish we had more of it. I have always thought that I could probably be bought. Basically what I mean is that I used to feel that if a company or opportunity was speaking big bucks then I would be for it no matter the obstacles or pros and cons. It wasn’t until I took on an opportunity that would give me exposure and extra money on the side until I realized how unhappy, mentally and emotionally drained that it left me. I also had a job where I absolutely HATED what I did. I honestly never hated a job as much as I hated this one. It was an hourly job that offered plenty of overtime. Yes, overtime meant more money and more money was what I needed but the money wasn’t worth my happiness and peace of mind. Money isn’t everything and if you can be bought then you have other issues that you need to address.
I’m ready for a committed relationship– I have been single for quite some time and I have never truly wanted a committed relationship until now. I knew I wanted something serious when casual sex no longer satisfied me. I am not dating for fun!
I was born to be an entrepreneur– I always thought that once I found a job that I liked, I would be satisfied. Boy, was I wrong! I had blooming career doing something that I loved but after a while I grew tired of it. A 9 to 5, corporate career or working for someone else just isn’t my thing. I do not like being told when I can take a break, go to lunch and go on vacation. If I am going to be committed to a dream or business, it’s going to be mine. Not everyone is made to be a business owner, it has to be in you and not on you.
The Single Bitch Diaries is my destiny– I started the SB Diaries for fun and it was just an outlet for me to express my feelings. When I realized that other women thought like me and went through similar situations as me, I knew that it had a purpose. I love what I do, and I love bringing women together. The SB Diaries is what I was born to do. I took a break and I almost thought about giving up but then I started receiving tweets and messages asking for blog posts and podcast episodes. During my break, I was able to get my thoughts together and now I am ready to take my baby to new heights. Thanks to each one of you for reading, commenting, subscribing and sharing my blog. Please continue to support my blog and don’t forget to tell your friends about it. I promise it will be worth it!
I HATE networking– I know you all are probably saying that network is essential to your professional career but I honestly dislike it. The thought of me going to mix and mingle events with people that I do not know and will probably never talk to again makes me feel uncomfortable. Honestly, this is 2017 and going to those types of events are a thing of the past in my opinion. I feel that you can get just as much done on social sites or even just going to a bar by yourself and striking up a conversation with the person next to you. I do not feel that it has to be so formal or intentional.
What are some things that you have learned about yourself this year? I encourage each one of you to write a list down and then determine if you would like to get rid of certain habits or continue to make another better. Please feel free to share your thoughts in the comments of this post or on Instagram.
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