We all reach that point in life where what we use to make us happy does not satisfy us anymore, we gravitate to things that we once shied away from and we no longer react to things that once pissed us of. Once we reach a certain point in our lives we realize that we need to allow room for growth and maybe mature in more ways than one. How you handle that point in your life determines your outcome so it is smart to utilize that time wisely.
Growing up life was easy for me. I never really had to work for anything and I never saw struggle. In a way I lived in bubble because I never knew what went on outside of me. I never had to fight my own battles because I always had someone to do it for me. I never had to finish things that I started and I never felt the consequences of my actions. One day out of the blue I started noticing that certain things no longer excited me and in a way I felt like I was losing myself and no longer knew who I was. I finally realized that I was experiencing growing pains. I was growing in more ways than one. I had an epiphany and I reflected over my mistakes and the person I was once was and I knew that I was not as mature emotionally as I thought I was. I no longer wanted to wait for people to help me do things and it was time for me to become my own woman. I learned that not only do you have to pick and choose your battles but you have to face those battles head on. There becomes a point and time where you can no longer run from your problems sometimes you have to figure out how to solve them. I saw some of the errors in my ways and I knew that I wanted to evolve into a better woman. I have to be honest and say that this time got very dark for me. Instead of accepting my mistakes and making sure that they never happen again, I harped on them and wondered what my life would be like if I would have made different decisions. Of course hindsight is always 20/20, or at least it should be, and now I see where I need to pick up and begin again.
These growing pains hurt and it is painful to look back and reflect on the person you are but do not fight the process. Your mistakes should never define you but they should be a perfect blueprint on what not to let happen again.
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